Recovery is a long long road and I'm at the start

I'm on my road for recovery ultimatly but I often turn around but I will eventually get there which is most important.

Haven’t eaten in a day, I would say I’m doing pretty well so far, my stomach hurts, but that’s expected.

I know if I get up my family is going to question me on if I want food and I don’t think I can turn down food right now. 77 calories is enough for today but I want to binge so bad right now. So I’ll guess I’ll just stay in bed for another 11 hours and “sleep.” I hate this sometimes. I just want to watch all my shows from the past week.

But from not eating today except for 7 pretzels(which I should have done without) my belly is really flat right now, so that the only thing that’s keeping me going and not having me binge right now. Why ruin such a beautiful thing?

Did nick really chop off his hair?